I know where your coming from. I'm thinking it could be one of two things (or both) 1) perhaps you are addicted to the habit of masterbation 2) or maybe your addicted to the endorphine rush. Saying your addicted to it might even be a little harsh on yourself, just take it one day at a time. I used to be a stoner and I had a really hard time stopping that because of the high and the habit (the motion of smoking) sadly as a substitute I find myself masterbating more. Fuck, maybe I'm not the one to be giving you advice
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