BlueBongo

As a victim of molestation by my father, which I do blame my father for my previous lying problems, I found myself often lying to my parents to just get out of the house. In 5th grade I wrote a letter to my grandmother letting her know that my father had been "sexually abusing" me.. I did not know what molestation was. So it started a big thing with CPS and the police, basically they said there was not enough evidence to prove anything had happened (since my sister, whom it also happened to, lied about it at the time).. so my WHOLE family, distant and non, did not trust me and to this day will not let me sleep in their homes without my sister or some other family member there... and well, this has really sucked.
BUT, back to the lying thing. From 5th grade on I started joining more activites, Girls Scouts, more band.. everyting and anything I could do to keep myself away from the house. When I was home I locked myself in my room or in the computer room. I lied about everything to my family and friends to make them all think I was okay. I would lie to my parents about staying at someone's house when I really wasn't.. etc etc. In High School I went so far as to forge a note saying I was going on a long band trip for a weekend when I was really going to Tucson to visit some friends at the University there. I didn't make it home on Sunday.. got caught. Even went so far as to try to move down to Tucson with my friends... but it was all a lie, I lost my friends and my family all in my younger years. And I really regret it... but at the same time I feel I have learned from my mistakes, spent lots on therapy, and turned myself around in the past 4 years.
It's not hard to spot a lie, especially when you know how it feels to tell one. I have trust issues as well. But having seen how much even some small lies hurt people, I don't lie to my friends and family. Though I will say I have told some at work, but just as far as the amount of work I've gotten done on days I don't really wanna be there. I don't feel I need to lie about anything anymore.. there is no real reason to it. Even if the outcome of knowing the truth is disasterous.

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