Ok, Ok....greetings. this is my first thread, and It's a doozie...
...So here's the problem. Recently, I've come to question the purpose of AIM in my life. Just to give you a clue of how much of a loser I am I will tell you this--I have no car, no job, no girlfriend, and no life.
I recently was sentenced to probation and community service due in part to foolish behavior on my behalf. So I have 3 years probation, 1 year if I show "good progress" I used to be a druggie, but I now painstalkingly sober and have been this way for 8 weeks now.
So enough chatter--on to the problem at hand; lately I've been using AIM a lot, talking to people I've never met, and wasting hours of my time blabbering away--usually about nothing in particular.
Although I'm tempted by the concept of people judging me based upon my personality, I'm also very disillusioned by the thought that these people are the closest thing I have to friends now. My friends have lately been avoiding me due to various immature behaviors I exhibited at their parties--I was tanked half the time, making a jackass of myself.
Also, I have been trying to distance myself from my old friends because they always have drugs with or around them--and I can't afford to give in to temptation.
Why the hell do I even bother with AIM? As far as I am concerned, the only friend I have now is a stilted stream of words coming from a person who may or may not be who they claim to be. It's so depressing!
But it's not as though I'm some geek who stays inside all day posting threads like "Captain Kirk is far more intellectual than Spock!" on some nerdy website. I was, at one point, a full-on stoner! a stoner with stoner friends, and stoner hangouts! But now I'm a nobody!!
So, should I--
A: Trash AIM and probably end up falling back into the bad crowd. But hey, it's at least someone to talk to--stoned, maybe--but still a person.
B: Continue talking to people who don't exsist, for all I'm concerned, on AIM. This option includes NOT risking further punishment.