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i used to try to do it a lot in highschool and early college. once in highschool, i had one that was, what i expect, many believe is a religious vision. i was frustrated with my asthma and fell asleep to a prayer, ending with me whispering "breathe on me, G-d." i fell asleep and began a lucid dream. there was the sound of beautiful music though the notes escaped me the next day, and felt a gentle breeze as i fell, without clothes, slowly downward through a massive black pit towards a center of white, with flickers surrounding it of what i imagined were angels. i began being pulled off course, and paniced when i realized i was not in control. i flailed my arms and attemed to scream, but the scream was dreamlike and though everything felt real to the touch. another, blueish light appeared, like a sun, and i was drawn to it. i suddenly stopped, pressed against this huge blueish light and could no longer see the white flickering path. i continued to scream and finally resolved to repeat over and over again, "it's a dream" until i woke up in a sweat. i woke up staring at the blue light of my ionizing air filter next to my bed, covered in sweat.
i didn't like lucid dreams much after that.
fucked up, eh?
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