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i sometimes like my body. as much as i don't want to be the " a man validates my worth" girl, my boyfriend really has helped me feel better about my looks. i mean someone sitting there complimenting all the parts you hate can help, you know? he has brought out this part of me that feel sexy and doesn't care about those stretch marks. cause everything about that part of me is confident and sexy and beautiful.
and then there are days where i feel very fat. and i don't think that's the root of the problem with me. i think that when i see myself as fat, i extend that to general character traits, such as lazy. i think that's what makes me feel the worst.
but i don't want to think about that. and i'm trying to change it. i do need to lose weight, i'm not at a really healthy weight. but i have been losing. i just want to be at a healthy weight, where i can go for a run and not be out of breath, and where i can shop at most stores and find my size.
i guess i'm a bit fickle with the love and hate of my body, but i guess i'm not alone.
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"When I look down I just miss all the good stuff. And when I look up I just trip over things"
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