Its not that I am considering not to go, I can't wait to go, I am getting so pissed off that I am away, I hate it when I cant help her, when I can't be with her....to hold her in my arms...to support her....She is not that far away, only an hour by plane.
Its just that, I have never been with a person that shares the feeling and I think I am going to fuck it up!
Ok what I didnt say In the first posts is that I am suicidical, I have been that way since I was 13. She gave me a reson not to go...I mean, if it wasn't for her I wouldn't be here now...so she means a lot to me, so if she rejects me, or if I fuck things up...I dont know...
