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I used to have incredibly disabling guilt problems after the suicide of my first g/f (while we were still dating).
Needless to say, I had the dreams, the 'what if's' and the periods where I found myself unable to do anything except self destruct. This went on for 3 years.
Then, I let myself go for just a short time, and fell in love with a friend of mine, who is still my love now, and who has done me wonders in recovery.
Sure, I still feel guilt over it, but it is very seldom that I fall into a hole and am unable to get out, and in the off-chance that I do, my SO is always there for me, as we have always been for each other.
Most of my guilt follows that line, and although I'm told its unwarranted, its just so hard to make myself believe it.
Sometimes I feel guilty just being human...
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