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There are many times when I find myself unhappy with my life. I wonder what it is I’m doing here, why I acted the way I did, or why I’m stuck in a cycle of living where I don’t know what the true answers are. I can’t say that I’ll ever find these answers, but I do hope that I can achieve a more direct and continuous state of happiness. Life is funny sometimes, because each time you think you’ve found the answer to your problems, each time you find yourself in a satisfying niche, each time you think you have it all, something takes away what you have, and shows you that your goal is far away. I think that most of my problems stem from a material view of happiness. I find myself defining my happiness through connections to other people, though seemingly meaningful events, and through day-to-day joys I find in my life. I’m not sure that these are the answers, because they rely on factors that rely outside of the self, they’re variable, and ultimately unreliable. True happiness, by definition, must be constant. It must not waver though changing conditions or situations, it must always be there. One might argue that such a condition of continuous happiness is impossible to achieve, but I believe (or at least hope) that such a condition is entirely possible for a human being to achieve. Since happiness cannot be defined through variable conditions, I must conclude that true happiness can only be found within the self. One must be content with their present, with their actions, content with their thoughts, and content with their intentions. If one can successfully achieve this, then true happiness may be attained. The questions come in where achieving this sense of happiness must be achieved. How can one perfect one self? How can one let go of all conditions that lay outside the self. These are the questions I ask myself, and the road of Buddhism is how I seek to find the answers.