Geezuz

I am a Guy with a dilema...like so many other people.
I dont know whether to follow my heart...or follow the trodden path of reality.
I have an opportunity to do what I have always dreamed of...an awsome opportunity...to play in a really good rock and roll band.
I left this band long ago...because of many outside distractions...
"mom is very sick"..."get a career"..."you need to be there for your family when things get hard"..."you need to start a family of your own"...I have always bent over backwards for everybody I know, and never got to complete my fanatic journey. I went to school...now I am in debt up to my eyeballs...can't find a decent job...depressed...lonely...regreting the day I left the life I wanted.
I am asking you guys to help me with my problem...God hasn't given me any straight answers at all...? What do you think I should do...More than that...What should people do in these times of uncertainty...follow the heart...or follow the harsh reality we all are slaves too? Faith is blind...Hope is risky...Im tired of trashing my mind...on beer and Whiskey...