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motdakasha · 09-06-2003, 06:28 AM

I've always had a problem with open doors, empty space, and my basement. I absolutely cannot sleep if there is a door within view that is ajar such that the inside of that door is pitch black. Large empty or spacey rooms creep me out big time (I am slightly agoraphobic). I used to have a realllly messy room, then I finally cleaned it up and I couldn't sleep for days! My room had become so clean I got scared of my room (and my room has always been the safeplace in my house, see next paragraph). Finally, I put a table in the center of my room so I wouldn't use clutter to fill it up and now I feel better in my room. It's safe once again.
And my basement is the killer fear here. It even creeps out some of my friends. We all feel that there is something coming at us, some kind of impending doom when we go up or down the stairs. I still haven't gotten over this and neither has my sister. I found out not too long ago that she also goes up and down the stairs with her back flat against the wall. I had no clue she was also afraid of it. Sometimes this sensation will follow me up the rest of the flights of stairs in my house (three flights in total). One way I deal with it is to carry my ferret around with me. It's less scary then. The way I figure it is this: If I can see it, so can any animal. My ferrets and dog haven't "detected" anything, so obviously it's some unfounded fear that isn't based on anything real. Sometimes, even still, it gets pretty ridiculous because I'll sprint up the stairs sideways with my back against the wall and all the lights on. There were a few times I've actually been on the verge of screaming, heh. Basically, it's like Evil Dead, when it films the evil stuff coming at the cabin only you can feel it coming at you, chasing you. I thought at first this was just another thing relating to my agoraphobia, but then why would everyone else have the same problem? And I don't believe in the devil or demons. For the superstitious, this is where I played ouija two or three times without saying goodbye, but I'd like to add that when we first moved into the house (way before the ouija board) I was utterly afraid of it. I was completely paralyzed in fear of the entire house! It was a very similar feeling to the stairwell, but a little more intense and different. So, only to be afraid of the stairwells and sometimes the kitchen is definitely an improvement.

Okay, I need to stop adding to this post because it's already a monstrosity!

09-06-2003, 06:28 AM	#32 (permalink)
motdakasha Hiya Puddin'! Miss me? Location: Silicon Valley, CA	I've always had a problem with open doors, empty space, and my basement. I absolutely cannot sleep if there is a door within view that is ajar such that the inside of that door is pitch black. Large empty or spacey rooms creep me out big time (I am slightly agoraphobic). I used to have a realllly messy room, then I finally cleaned it up and I couldn't sleep for days! My room had become so clean I got scared of my room (and my room has always been the safeplace in my house, see next paragraph). Finally, I put a table in the center of my room so I wouldn't use clutter to fill it up and now I feel better in my room. It's safe once again. And my basement is the killer fear here. It even creeps out some of my friends. We all feel that there is something coming at us, some kind of impending doom when we go up or down the stairs. I still haven't gotten over this and neither has my sister. I found out not too long ago that she also goes up and down the stairs with her back flat against the wall. I had no clue she was also afraid of it. Sometimes this sensation will follow me up the rest of the flights of stairs in my house (three flights in total). One way I deal with it is to carry my ferret around with me. It's less scary then. The way I figure it is this: If I can see it, so can any animal. My ferrets and dog haven't "detected" anything, so obviously it's some unfounded fear that isn't based on anything real. Sometimes, even still, it gets pretty ridiculous because I'll sprint up the stairs sideways with my back against the wall and all the lights on. There were a few times I've actually been on the verge of screaming, heh. Basically, it's like Evil Dead, when it films the evil stuff coming at the cabin only you can feel it coming at you, chasing you. I thought at first this was just another thing relating to my agoraphobia, but then why would everyone else have the same problem? And I don't believe in the devil or demons. For the superstitious, this is where I played ouija two or three times without saying goodbye, but I'd like to add that when we first moved into the house (way before the ouija board) I was utterly afraid of it. I was completely paralyzed in fear of the entire house! It was a very similar feeling to the stairwell, but a little more intense and different. So, only to be afraid of the stairwells and sometimes the kitchen is definitely an improvement. Okay, I need to stop adding to this post because it's already a monstrosity! __________________ =^-^= motdakasha =^-^= Just Google It. BA Psychology & Photography (I'm not going psychoanalyze you nor will I let you cry on my shoulder. Have a nice day.) Last edited by motdakasha; 09-06-2003 at 06:37 AM..