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hundred-peons · 09-04-2003, 06:15 PM

Having experienced this first hand, I must say this is one of the most terrifying and helpless feelings a young person can ever go through.

Now at age 24, I have these episodes rarely, I'm a 6'3" 200lb male, i have a hard time sleeping on my side or stomach. Almost always do I sleep on my back.

In high school I would have these episodes every single saturday and sunday. Alarm clock being turned off on these days. It's almost as though your natural ability to wake yourself is fubared.

The first feeling I would have is that you feel yourself completely aware that you are lying in bed and are no longer asleep, your eyes are still closed, and that you are unable to open them. You then realize you can hear everything, TV, people in other rooms, stereo etc, and that these things are real, they are not distorted dreams, they are real voices and what not. You make attempts to call out to another person and are completely mute, you may think they did not hear you, but in reality you are mute during this whole thing. Not only are you mute at this point, but you begin to think you are NOT breathing, that you are suffocating.

Then it strikes you to MOVE, to MOVE now. This is where you get terrified as you cannot move under your own willpower. It really feels like your willpower is taken from you. Not a physical paralysis so much as someone or something has robbed you of your own willpower.

The scary part is that the more your struggle, the worse it gets, yet if you refuse to struggle you're met with a feeling of doom as though you will die if you do not fight it. That leaves you in a state of panic as you are furiously struggling to wake.

Two things couple this experience, one you can reproduce easily by closing your eyes as hard as you can, it gives you a pop in your ears, and a sound of pressure. This is the "crackle" and hum people hear.

The other... is the terrible feeling of a "being" sitting on your chest, or holding you down. A presence outside of yourself being part of this whole experience. This is what ultimately freaks me out as I have never met face to face with any spirit or demon or what have you.

I am convinced that it is over when this thing or being is gone. I'm met with a feeling of conquest, or victory as though I bested whatever it is that was doing this to me.

09-04-2003, 06:15 PM	#36 (permalink)
hundred-peons Upright	Having experienced this first hand, I must say this is one of the most terrifying and helpless feelings a young person can ever go through. Now at age 24, I have these episodes rarely, I'm a 6'3" 200lb male, i have a hard time sleeping on my side or stomach. Almost always do I sleep on my back. In high school I would have these episodes every single saturday and sunday. Alarm clock being turned off on these days. It's almost as though your natural ability to wake yourself is fubared. The first feeling I would have is that you feel yourself completely aware that you are lying in bed and are no longer asleep, your eyes are still closed, and that you are unable to open them. You then realize you can hear everything, TV, people in other rooms, stereo etc, and that these things are real, they are not distorted dreams, they are real voices and what not. You make attempts to call out to another person and are completely mute, you may think they did not hear you, but in reality you are mute during this whole thing. Not only are you mute at this point, but you begin to think you are NOT breathing, that you are suffocating. Then it strikes you to MOVE, to MOVE now. This is where you get terrified as you cannot move under your own willpower. It really feels like your willpower is taken from you. Not a physical paralysis so much as someone or something has robbed you of your own willpower. The scary part is that the more your struggle, the worse it gets, yet if you refuse to struggle you're met with a feeling of doom as though you will die if you do not fight it. That leaves you in a state of panic as you are furiously struggling to wake. Two things couple this experience, one you can reproduce easily by closing your eyes as hard as you can, it gives you a pop in your ears, and a sound of pressure. This is the "crackle" and hum people hear. The other... is the terrible feeling of a "being" sitting on your chest, or holding you down. A presence outside of yourself being part of this whole experience. This is what ultimately freaks me out as I have never met face to face with any spirit or demon or what have you. I am convinced that it is over when this thing or being is gone. I'm met with a feeling of conquest, or victory as though I bested whatever it is that was doing this to me.