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My life as a bi female...makes me want to cry. My only real experience was when I was in a high school, when my best friend spent the night and we were together in my tiny bed. We were both just laying there, pretending we were asleep, and thinking about each other, when we both just sorta reached out and held each other for a long time. There was a little bit of touching and feeling and a kiss on the cheek, but then we fell asleep. We told each other that we loved each other, but she decided that she was too scared for us to carry on a relationship (we lived in a really homophobic area, and my parents are included).
Since I moved to college, I tried desperately to find a chic, if only to have sex, or something, as I was all pent up and dying to have a real experience. No luck, no luck, then I met this guy and fell in love with him. Then, I meet this awesome girl, who falls in love with me, but we can't be together.
If discussed it a lot with my boyfriend, and he feels really strongly that me doing anything with ANYONE, would cheating. I respect this, but I think he has a hard time understanding that I feel like half of my life is missing, sometimes. Whenever I try to explain, I think that he feels like I couldn't possibly love him enough if I still want to be with someone else.
Sorry, I guess this turned into more of a "lesbian woes" than a how to seduce women. Anyway, I totally feel where you're coming from, collide, meeting chicks is really hard, because you feel like if you make a pass at a close friend, you might lose them, and finding complete stranger lesbians is tough. Also, I'm totally jealous of you, angela146, because you are in a situation where you can do whatever you can, want, or need to do. You always offer great advice, but in my case, I don't think there's anything to do about it.
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