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ellipsys · 08-23-2003, 09:06 AM

i started smoking bud when i was 12, it was a once every couple week thing with my older cousins who lived nearby. that turned into a once a day thing within the next 3 years. when i was 15 i was buying quarter lbs. of med-quality bud every 5-7 days or so, smoking about an oz. to myself and the other 3 would be flipped over for about double what i paid. when i was 15-16 most of the money i made from being a middle man went towards shrooms (i'd guess 8 or 9 seperate 2-day long trips) coke (twice) and 3 acid trips. somewhere around that time i started buying crystal meth to sell, for my friends who didnt want to smoke weed anymore. november 2001 (a month after i turned 16) i started to smoke meth with people who i sold it to, they will almost always want to buy even more from you on the spot. Within 2 months i stopped dealing/using any other drug. The longest i ever went without meth was about 5 days. i'll smoke some weed maybe once a month, or during an especially hard come down. i take a 3-4 hour nap every 4 days or so, that is all of the sleep i get. Longest i've gone without sleeping was between 10 and 11 days, on about 5 different occasions. after 3 or 4 days without sleep, it is hard to differentiate the peak of a spin from an acid trip, especially at night. i can say without hesitation that i am addicted, dependent, hooked, a slave. my priorities are fucked. my friends and family are worry about me, and often vocalize their suspicions that i am still tweaking, but lying and making excuses is so damn easy when you're spun. the hard part is when you realize that you're being dishonest and deceitful to the people who love you most.

I put this on the blur of mixed up images and a slew of disordered and half-hallucinated memories that is the last 2 years of my life - do not fuck with this drug. don't sell it, dont don't buy it from a dealer you know in order to hook a friend up, dont hang around people who do it. if you are thinkin about doin some speed in order to work harder, stay up to hang out with friends, lose weight, just to see what its like - Don't. simple as that. its not worth it.

08-23-2003, 09:06 AM	#38 (permalink)
ellipsys Upright	i started smoking bud when i was 12, it was a once every couple week thing with my older cousins who lived nearby. that turned into a once a day thing within the next 3 years. when i was 15 i was buying quarter lbs. of med-quality bud every 5-7 days or so, smoking about an oz. to myself and the other 3 would be flipped over for about double what i paid. when i was 15-16 most of the money i made from being a middle man went towards shrooms (i'd guess 8 or 9 seperate 2-day long trips) coke (twice) and 3 acid trips. somewhere around that time i started buying crystal meth to sell, for my friends who didnt want to smoke weed anymore. november 2001 (a month after i turned 16) i started to smoke meth with people who i sold it to, they will almost always want to buy even more from you on the spot. Within 2 months i stopped dealing/using any other drug. The longest i ever went without meth was about 5 days. i'll smoke some weed maybe once a month, or during an especially hard come down. i take a 3-4 hour nap every 4 days or so, that is all of the sleep i get. Longest i've gone without sleeping was between 10 and 11 days, on about 5 different occasions. after 3 or 4 days without sleep, it is hard to differentiate the peak of a spin from an acid trip, especially at night. i can say without hesitation that i am addicted, dependent, hooked, a slave. my priorities are fucked. my friends and family are worry about me, and often vocalize their suspicions that i am still tweaking, but lying and making excuses is so damn easy when you're spun. the hard part is when you realize that you're being dishonest and deceitful to the people who love you most. I put this on the blur of mixed up images and a slew of disordered and half-hallucinated memories that is the last 2 years of my life - do not fuck with this drug. don't sell it, dont don't buy it from a dealer you know in order to hook a friend up, dont hang around people who do it. if you are thinkin about doin some speed in order to work harder, stay up to hang out with friends, lose weight, just to see what its like - Don't. simple as that. its not worth it.