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I kinda hate my body. I have the curves in my hips that men like but I lack the boobs to make a real hour glass. I don't want to be stick thin, I like the Marilyn Monroe hourglass.
I am fighting genetics (all my family is big) and have been on a diet of this or that since I was 12. I remember being 150lbs at age 12.
Two years ago motivated by hate, anger, and spite thanks to the men in my life I lost 85lbs. Went from 235 to 150lbs.
I have since gained about 25 of it back and hate myself for it.
I can't seem to get that motivation back. But of course now at 27, I am always on some magic diet pill or low carb diet.
One day at my lowest I realized that if large women were considered beautiful and hot, I probably wouldn't be dieting.
Man that is just wrong!
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