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Lost
(before I post...all I can say is GOD FUCKING DAMMIT...and kick myself for not having all of the poetry I put up here saved to my computer.)
Here I am, so broken hearted
Lost my love, it's only started
Lives I've led with utmost ease
Life with just myself to please
Know it won't come back, I try
Convine myself before I lie
Needles piercing in my skin
Drowning in myself again
I see shadows loom behind me
They consume my gaze blindly
I breathe life into her mind's soul
Only to be so lost in my role
I can't say that I soiled her
I can't say that I made her loins stir
Just a battered innocence
Like a crumpled wedding dress
There are no stains, there is no dirt
Just lines of neglect, signs of hurt
Still so pretty, still so fair
Deserving someone who can care
I'm not him, but maybe I once was
Just shows what lust will do, always does
I'm trying to learn how to love
But love is not what I am made of
Sticks and stones, above all words
Driving masses of the shepherds
I am so sorry for this
I truly am
In a world, a life
Full of lies
Believe me when I say
I'm sorry.
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