oldman2003

Ok I have a religious back ground. Lots of Christianity, some yoga (10 years plus) and mind altering drug years under my belt. Christian view on freewill (in a nut shell): God is three beings in One thus the Trinity. They (He) have a pure loving relationship and once decided to share it. He tried an experiment. He created a race of beings to share this love but they had to choose. Thus the angles were created. It worked for a while (a few billion earth years). The most beautiful creature He created, observed One (what we call the Son) of the Trinity being worshiped and loved by the angels and in a fraction of a second desired that for himself. Lucifer’s ego was created and he fell from grace. The first record of free will being used for selfish proposes. Gods experiment failed. A few billion years later He decided to do this again and created man to share in this Love relationship. He made man in His Image (not the flesh but the powerful spirit). Again He wanted us to share this love that holds the known universe together but it had to be our choice; Freewill.

I have cursed God over and over through out the years for giving me this freewill and a giant ego. They don’t play together very will. I have freely given back to Him my freewill. Over and over again. Some say the greatest saints were the biggest sinners. I am far from a saint and get tripped up on my sins. The biggest being self imposed ignorance.

Here is what I learned about freewill. It gets you in trouble. It doesn’t get along with the ego. Someday I will find the balance. Then I will no longer be His most unholy son.