CityOfAngels

Let's see...where should I start?

That pic of the guy who survived the attempted shotgun-to-the-face suicide on rotten.com is pretty damned horrible. All you can see is his forehead, and everything below is all split open; even his eyes were spread apart from each other.

I've seen various rotten.com pictures. Ew.

Faces of Death shows how they catch and slaughter dolphins. I saw that when I was in like 3rd grade, when my mom's nazi ex-husband was like, "Hey, check this out!". The video of those men slicing them open alive, and then ripping out their intestines with their hands has haunted me forever.

This one was actually shown on Maximum Exposure. This cook grabs a big medium-sized fish straight out of the aquarium and starts scaling it (shaving off it's scales with a knife) alive. The fish flaps around like crazy, even slips away onto the floor, but the asshole just picks it up and starts scaling away again. He then slices it open (the fish is still alive, mind you), and starts gutting it. With no intestines, the fish is STILL ALIVE, and the guy picks it up with tongs and sticks the back end of it in the fryer, leaving the front end (head) in the open so it still lives. After frying the back end, he throws it on a plate, dresses it, and serves it to a family. You see it on the plate, still moving its mouth, as the family (little kids included) are just taking chunks of it's fried flesh with their chopsticks and chowing down. This one I saw recently, and it still disturbs me.

I was up late once, watching the late night infomercials, when this tree-hugger group showed how different animals are treated in laboratories around the U.S. The one that still haunts me to this day is when these asshole scientists strap this black pot-belly pig to the floor, and then approach it with flame torches. They don't give it any anesthetic at all as they start turning up the flames, burning the poor pig alive. As it's flesh burns, they stop, tear off the burnt flesh, and start burning it some more. They do that repeatedly until the program switches to the "donate now" part. They said the scientific reason for it was "to study the different stages of intense burns on a pig." Fucking assholes!

A few days ago I went to a Hawaian market with my girlfriend, and in the seafood section, they sell hardshell turtles. The turtles are live; but my girlfriend tells me that according to law, they have to kill the turtle before selling it. Anyways, I saw this little kid pick up one turtle with the clampers, look it over like it's a piece of fruit, and unsatisfied, he throws it down hard on top of the other turtles and grabs a bigger one. My girlfriend pulled me away and said, "Don't look at that. We're here for the won-ton wrap." Too late, I looked at it. I hope that little kid rots in hell.

One nightmare I had consisted only of different people dieing in different ways. It was horrible. Some drowned, some exploded, and it even got creative as one guy, piloting a helicopter, flew over a volcano as it erupted. I woke up crying in the middle of the night. I went to my grandma's room (I was in Junior high), and before I told her of the nightmare, she told me she just had a nightmare where she had to escape her house for some reason, and the whole family left in a helicopter, flew over a volcano and it erupted. Trippy shit.

Oh yeah, tubgirl, goatsecx, bigbears, and bakkla all had me on the verge of throwing up.

So yeah, I've seen a lot, dreamt a lot; even more than what I posted here. I guess that's what you get when reality is fed to you at an early age.

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