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The main thing is to just try to put the next year or two of your life into perspective. I think a lot of kids in high school go through a similar phase/feeling, where they can't imagine how they will live another minute unless they are "popular" and not unpopular. Some kids get too wrapped up in this and they don't realize that a year or two later all that popularity adds up to a pile of poop. Frequently, the kids who spend all their energies being popular don't learn their schooling and quickly become unsuccessful or pregnant after high school. The kids who do ok in school, or who realize that most of their lives will take place AFTER school and WITHOUT their "friends". You need to buckle down and pursue your education. You need to identify the one, two or three things in life that you REALLY enjoy doing (or think you would enjoy) and set your goal to be able to do them as often as possible. In the large scale of things you need to gain the perspective that whether you have friends in the next year or two doesn't matter a squat for how the rest of your 60 years of life will go, or how happy you will be. Having a good education - being happy and/or successful in your career and making sure that you frequently do the things that you enjoy are all very important.
Chances are, that while you are doing all of that you will meet someone with like interests and you will make friends.
You need to see a doctor to be sure that you aren't suffering from a chemical problem that could be easily fixed with medication. Your suicide comment cannot be ignored and you at least want to rule it out.
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