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i don't -hate- my body.
i put on a total of 70 pounds over 5 years due to medications, and it's just starting to drop off now. 40 pounds down, 35 to go.
like many other people, there are a lot of things i wish i could change, but it generally doesn't occur to me... or at least, it isn't on my mind, until someone else makes me conscious of it.
on another forum i read, there's an enormous amount of fat-bashing, which is hard to swallow after a while. i get really bothered by hearing 'all fat people are lazy,' and 'if you're above a size 8, you're too big.'
i guess what i'm disjointedly saying is that i don't really think about my body too much. i really only notice it when it looks particularly good, which i like, of course, but also when someone else makes me feel badly about it.
so if i could change anything, i don't think it would be anything physical, because i'm doing okay with that on my own - 30 pounds lost since january - but rather i'd change the fact that i can be so sensetive to what other people say about my body or my body type in general, because it throws me off track in terms of reaching my goals.
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