hmmm... This prolly got me off on the wrong foot, but im suddenly struk with the thought that if its possible to do once, its possible to do twice
so i would go back, do everything differently. Live the good life of the sinner, take pleasure in all the things you are not supposed to take pleasure in, see where it takes me, what experiences i have, and what i think of it. Then i would go back and do it again, only the way i think is the right way. This would ofcourse have been done without losing myself, but to have had the pleasure of screwing over the 'polis', to see what happens when i take apart the world (ehlo donnie darko). I would then go back again and try to make society a better society/
polis to live in (ehlo Plato). Who is to say that someone who has done something bad doesnt know whats good? thats the problem with society today, the ones that have, arent trusted to change, and the ones who havent, dont know how.
Ive had a few sinful urges in my life, but im too afraid of the consiquences it might have. I sometimes think of what would have happend if i had done this or that, and it allways takes me back to the point that society is holding me back, maybe for my own good, but i dont know whats better for me untill i've tried it. This is ofcourse to the better of the society/
polis we live in, we cant have people running around doing whatever they want, but how can we have someone making decisions for the society/
polis about things they dont know anything about/have experienced. So how can i know that the society/
polis knows best when the ones in charge most of the time/sometimes dont know what they're doing.
So yeah, i would go back
Ofcourse, this is just one of my blabberings
pay no attention to me