Jaron

There's the cliched saying, "History repeats itself." That has nothing to do with this post.



The question I'm posing to all of you is this:

If you could go back in time and change anything you wanted about your life, if you could start over from the beginning with everything you've experienced (the good and the bad alike), would you do anything differently?

My answer is this:

Fuck, no.

My reasoning is this:

Everything that's happened to me, and everything I've done, has brought me to where I am now. The good and the bad... I've spent more time in gutters than I have in beds, I've been a druggie and am currently an alcoholic. I've fucked up the lives of most people I know, at least at one point or another, and I've fucked up the lives of more people than I even know of. I've been through so much stuff that most people would say is pretty fucking tough, and I've seen enough to make me feel fucking old and feeble at only eighteen years old. I'm an insomniac, and my health is on the decline. I don't expect to live past fourty, if even that long, and still... I wouldn't change a thing. Without the bullshit that's happened, the things that've come out of that would never have happened. I would have had different experiences, for better or for worse, and I wouldn't have been the way I am now.

That isn't to say that I won't change things in the future, because I know that I will.

Your experiences define you, and whether or not you like what you see in the mirror, it's who you are.



To add another cliche, considering that I started with one, "Better the evil you know."