Thanks everybody, you helped a LOT... thanks for all your advice and encouragement... I love TFP, not as much as I love Nicole, but it's a close second.
She just read the thread (under my user name) and is digesting it but she said a few things:
1. She loved SiNs story...
2. I am never goanna get to post her stripping on TPF
I made a pact with her that if I ever did that I'd have to post myself too... so like hell that is going to happen. I just know too many websavvy people
3. She said ratbastid gave some good advice.... loving her with all her 'issues' and all...
Maybe one day I'll get her comfortable enough with herself to love herself as I love her, although that might be too much.
Anyway, thanks guys