Okay... I really want some advice on this.
*Insert Flashback*
December 12Th 1999: Dutch blond guy sits in front of the PC late in the evening, ICQing... back when everyone was using it.
Suddenly a message comes up: "Hi" it's from this American chick. Which I think is soooo cool. So I chat with her a bit.
A couple of days later, we kept on chatting every other night and we finally exchange pics. I'm a stupid 15 year old kid who doesn't care what some girl 1000 miles away thinks and feels.
So I see the pic and see that she is... well... big...
So I tell her... "I'm sorry, but I'm not attracted to you in the least, you're too fat, maybe it's just because girls over here are much skinnier" or something similar. Did I say I was a stupid kid already?
*Fast forward to today*
I talk to Nicole (that's her name) every day. So much so that my health is suffering under it. lol. We are something in between close friends and boyfriend/girlfriend. The only thing keeping us apart being this big piece of water called the Atlantic, money (or rather lack thereof) and.... insecurities.
I love this woman many times over and have told her many times over that if she is anything in RL like she is online I won't stop till she's mine forever.
She says she loves me too and she is planning to come over next summer... which I am anxiously looking forward too.
Now why did I talk about how stupid I was in the beginning? Well... she recently bought a web-cam. I borrowed one a while back and... *cough* stripped *cough* for her. So naturally I asked the same of her...
But that's when she brings that up again. She says the reason she didn't even tell me she had a web-cam (she had it like a month b4 I knew about it) was that she was ashamed of her body and would take time... right now she just gave me 2 pics of her face (which I adore and will post below). And she is nowhere near her earlier weight and even so, I couldn't care less, I love her. I told her this, but she still doesn't fully believe me.
Does anyone have any idea how I can get her to realize she is beautiful? Plus, does anyone know of any transatlantic online relationships that worked out or failed?
Anyway... nobody ever responds to my threads so I wonder why I even bother...
Perhaps to show off my baby.
Isn't she cute?
