oh yea i forgot to say im female so they're freaking out bcos "it's ok for boys but not girls" and what will other people think.. and "it reflects the parents".. yeah maybe if i were 7. i'm my own person now. my mom asked why i'm so rebellious... i wouldnt be if they weren't so against it. this is something i've wanted to do since last summer but never got the courage to do. it's not bcos i want to rebel. i just honestly think i have the face and head shape to pull it off and i like the idea of still being feminine with or without hair. and then my dad accuses me of being immature and that i need to communicate more. hello, i could have completely done this behind their backs but i told them even when i knew they'd freak out and be against it. i have no incentive to want to communicate to them. i've never really been very close with them thru the years and NOW he wants me to communicate more. like that's all going to change overnight... i'd like to tell them i want to get birth control but they're probably in lalaland thinking i'm still a virgin even tho i'm in a good 5 month relationship right now. and i'm scared of how they'll react because they'll probably FREAK OUT even more. my dad actually said "i guess you know babies don't come from storks. you're old enough to know better" well no shit. it was probably his way of scaring me into abstinence or something. and i'm suppose to communicate more?? his obscure talk isn't going to do anything. blah. haha sorry tangent...
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