ah, but sleepyjack, what if that's part of the revenge? "You people have hurt me all my life, and now, in escaping the misery, i can get something back."
The only thing more painful than feeling like you need to commit suicide, is failing. Failed suicides are NOT "cries for help." At least, not in my opinion. Failed suicides are a way of life telling you you're a failure, even at failing. Hell, not getting the guts up enough to do it is just one more kick in the ass as well. (gee, can we tell cheers had some probs when she was younger?
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