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Konichiwaneko · 07-06-2003, 11:32 PM

I really don't know how to start on this, it's a curious topic for me that may not even need a response. I'm more just reaching out to a community I've been a part off for a while.

The issue is simply - I can't but don't want too escape my relationship memories, and it's eating at me.

Let me simply say I love my life. I've been fortunate to be able to utilize my learned skills when given the oppurtunity too, and have had a successful life. Relationship wise I've been very fortunate, and have had the priveledge of knowing many fine women whom I'm proud to call friends now, even after breaking up.

That's where the problem lies. There's been too many women.

I know it sounds conceited and brass, but don't take it that I'm so horn dog going after ass and only ass. Far from that.

Growing up with 2 sisters and no brothers, I was exposed too girls all my life. I've never been long without having a girl in my life. When I'm at points of solitude (single, so on) I begin to miss having that female presence around me.

Now here, 6 years dating I've been with 14 girls relationship wise (This isn't a matter of sex, so please don't see it that way) and..

I remember everything about them. Every little detail. It's the type of person I am.. There are times when I hang out with my group of friends, and I qoute verbatim what they say or did 5 years ago. I get strange looks sometimes because of how trivial it was, but still that's me.

With women that I've had a relationship with it goes further. I remember things so unique, and they eat at me sometimes. I wake up in a cold sweat sometimes because I can see one of their faces....so real. I can hear how they talk, in their exact voices. It haunts me....all of them. I remember even where the mole and scars are on their bodies.

It's odd telling you guys this, but it's what's eating at me now. Mostly since I recently lost the last lady in my life.

I just want to say guys have emotions too, and guys also remember things too.....and sometimes it really eats at us. Consumes us.

What do you guys think? Any suggestions? Call me crazy

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07-06-2003, 11:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
Konichiwaneko The Dreaded Pixel Nazi Location: Inside my camera	The dumbing down of love I really don't know how to start on this, it's a curious topic for me that may not even need a response. I'm more just reaching out to a community I've been a part off for a while. The issue is simply - I can't but don't want too escape my relationship memories, and it's eating at me. Let me simply say I love my life. I've been fortunate to be able to utilize my learned skills when given the oppurtunity too, and have had a successful life. Relationship wise I've been very fortunate, and have had the priveledge of knowing many fine women whom I'm proud to call friends now, even after breaking up. That's where the problem lies. There's been too many women. I know it sounds conceited and brass, but don't take it that I'm so horn dog going after ass and only ass. Far from that. Growing up with 2 sisters and no brothers, I was exposed too girls all my life. I've never been long without having a girl in my life. When I'm at points of solitude (single, so on) I begin to miss having that female presence around me. Now here, 6 years dating I've been with 14 girls relationship wise (This isn't a matter of sex, so please don't see it that way) and.. I remember everything about them. Every little detail. It's the type of person I am.. There are times when I hang out with my group of friends, and I qoute verbatim what they say or did 5 years ago. I get strange looks sometimes because of how trivial it was, but still that's me. With women that I've had a relationship with it goes further. I remember things so unique, and they eat at me sometimes. I wake up in a cold sweat sometimes because I can see one of their faces....so real. I can hear how they talk, in their exact voices. It haunts me....all of them. I remember even where the mole and scars are on their bodies. It's odd telling you guys this, but it's what's eating at me now. Mostly since I recently lost the last lady in my life. I just want to say guys have emotions too, and guys also remember things too.....and sometimes it really eats at us. Consumes us. What do you guys think? Any suggestions? Call me crazy ? __________________ Hesitate. Pull me in. Breath on breath. Skin on skin. Loving deep. Falling fast. All right here. Let this last. Here with our lips locked tight. Baby the time is right for us... to forget about us.