Do you LIKE fighting?
First off, Im not trying to come over as some kind of tough guy. Lets just say that in my life I've been in fights, I've won fights, I've lost fights, I've been awake half the night scared of fighting the next day, and everything else. Mostly when I was a kid, because obviously as you get older there are different legal and moral considerations.
But do you LIKE the actual act of fighting?
My basic feeling is that almost everyone does, but I dont know if I am trying to pass off my own feelings as "normal" or if I am judging correctly.
I appreciate as you get older you think of the consequences of actions more. There are obviously moral reasons that hurting someone isnt a good thing and self protection feelings that getting hurt yourself isnt good.
But the actual ACT of fighting,whether the last time it happened was when you were a 13, or if you're a prizefighter: does the act of hitting someone, taking punches, measuring them up and getting stuck into them, just that feeling when you swing you a punch and it lands, or someone hits you and you move through it, all that stuff... is it good? If you step outside the moral element, the legal side of things, does it physially feel "good"?
I may have stated this clumsily as I am half drunk, but it was something I was thinking about.
I'm not the kind of person that goes out every Saturday night and gets drunk, but I also do recognise that I do have problems with my temper, my self esteem, that sometimes leads to unacceptable actions. If I wasnt more afraid of the results to my mind I probably would have taken up boxing a couple of times when I was younger (but I was always too scared of getting really hurt and my brains scrambled by 40). I certainly can be and often am a coward and will back away from confrontation. But there is an animal pleasure in just squaring up to a man and trying to take him apart before he does it to you that I cannot deny I feel.
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