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Plan9 · 06-04-2011, 10:23 PM

Mmm, let's say I turned 30 a few days ago. It just recently dawned on me as I was looking at daily reports.

Question: What did turning 30 mean to you, TFP? Were your 30s better than your 20s?

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I got to thinking: 30 is a helluva lot better than 20. I've got everything now. I'm ready.

My 20s were a turbulent decade of figuring out what to do with myself, constant comparison to my peers, the military experience, marriage and divorce, slamming through college to the point that it was no fun, money worries, desperate serial monogamy, etc. Fuck that noise.

Totally over all that shit. Military is done, college is done, I'm relatively single (girlfriends don't count), I've got a lucrative job in my field of choice with stupid amounts of upward mobility in my near future. All the preparation to be a Big Boy is... done. Now that I'm a Big Boy and can pretty much do whatever the hell I want (Napoleon Dynamite-style), it's just a matter of, well, figuring out how I want to spend my time and money until I get tossed in a pine box. The structure of the previous institutions (military, college) is totally gone and I'm left with my own path. It's incredibly liberating because there is no down side to any of it. I'm the same grade of retard mentally and while I've got some extra wrinkles from the sun, I'm still basically in the same physical shape I was a decade ago (waistline, run times, etc.).

Anybody have some perspective or stories? I don't know what to make of it. I'm not sure whether or not I should be excited.

Ten years totally means nothing. I'm still the same dude with the same shit taste in music and weird diet. I don't feel different.

And yet ten years totally changed everything. I never imagined I'd be where I am right now doing what I do. Just surfin' through life.

I guess if I had to summarize it, I'd use some Tropic Thunder humor: "I know which dude I am."

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I realize this is an incredibly inane middle class existential white guy topic but, yeah, I don't see a helluva lot else being posted on here.

06-04-2011, 10:23 PM	#1 (permalink)
Plan9 I Confess a Shiver	30 is the new Big Boy age. Mmm, let's say I turned 30 a few days ago. It just recently dawned on me as I was looking at daily reports. Question: What did turning 30 mean to you, TFP? Were your 30s better than your 20s? ... I got to thinking: 30 is a helluva lot better than 20. I've got everything now. I'm ready. My 20s were a turbulent decade of figuring out what to do with myself, constant comparison to my peers, the military experience, marriage and divorce, slamming through college to the point that it was no fun, money worries, desperate serial monogamy, etc. Fuck that noise. Totally over all that shit. Military is done, college is done, I'm relatively single (girlfriends don't count), I've got a lucrative job in my field of choice with stupid amounts of upward mobility in my near future. All the preparation to be a Big Boy is... done. Now that I'm a Big Boy and can pretty much do whatever the hell I want (Napoleon Dynamite-style), it's just a matter of, well, figuring out how I want to spend my time and money until I get tossed in a pine box. The structure of the previous institutions (military, college) is totally gone and I'm left with my own path. It's incredibly liberating because there is no down side to any of it. I'm the same grade of retard mentally and while I've got some extra wrinkles from the sun, I'm still basically in the same physical shape I was a decade ago (waistline, run times, etc.). Anybody have some perspective or stories? I don't know what to make of it. I'm not sure whether or not I should be excited. Ten years totally means nothing. I'm still the same dude with the same shit taste in music and weird diet. I don't feel different. And yet ten years totally changed everything. I never imagined I'd be where I am right now doing what I do. Just surfin' through life. I guess if I had to summarize it, I'd use some Tropic Thunder humor: *"I know which dude I am."* ... I realize this is an incredibly inane middle class existential white guy topic but, yeah, I don't see a helluva lot else being posted on here. __________________ *Whatever you can carry.* "You should not drink... and bake." Last edited by Plan9; 06-04-2011 at 10:39 PM..