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Why must you decide what you'll do with the relationship this very second? Surely if you do intend to forgive her and be with her for the rest of your life then you'll both have time enough to respect the process entailed in forgiving after such a violation of trust. What's the rush and where does how you feel about all of this factor in?
Face it, the relationship you two had is over.
Whether you patch things up or not things will never be as they were before.
There's no going back from here - no undoing what's been done.
You two may be able to get through this but anger and revulsion (maybe even hatred) are pretty normal things to feel after being cheated on and you don't seem concerned at all with allowing yourself the space and time necessary to feel what's happened here and consciously consider what you'll do. Again, what's the rush? Slow down and get over getting things back to normal or else you'll cheat yourself and damn whatever future you two may have together.
Your self-esteem has had to have taken a serious blow in all of this and without it you can't do anything for yourself or anyone else you'd like to be with. Take the time to build yourself back up.
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"Porn is a zoo of exotic animals that becomes boring upon ownership." -Nersesian
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