Mantus, I somewhat feel the same way. I am "lazy" in my eyes, but most say I am not. I dont know what you call it but i "consider the source" when they tell me this by looking at what they do in life or how they act or think that i sometimes brush it off. I need to keep on progressing.
this "life" game we play seems to be easy. you know, "paying bills, working, cleaning,eating." I feel that us as humans have alot to go and being sucked into random entertainment we lose track of that.
I tend to be "a loner" when it comes to these ideas. I tend to try to grow and progress as well as never losing my morality and beliefs of what is right and what is wrong in a society that is forever changing and trying to take from our basic beliefs.
I try to reach out to my "inner self" and be my worst critic. I would also love to surround myself by others who see what I am about (since i am an open book and let ppl know my thoughts as well as elaborate on them if they are confused.) and question me and tell me what they see so if they are wrong i can correct them and maybe change who I am to better myself.
this si where i go sometimes to "reach out" to new ideas and such.
Project Avalon Community Forum
label me what you want by that ONE link if you wish. that is cool. some of it is "whoa" and some is very good info.
so I say, reach my friend. reach for the stars. My hobby is to forever try to learn but never sacrifice the basic levels of morality (in my eyes.) in the process.
I too get caught up from time to time and "play online games" or watch a movie here and there. but I have to challenge myself to NOT over indulged in that stuff.
just my thoughts.
If i was "off track", I apologize.