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You've only had sex with him once, right?
You are making the classic mistake of placing too much emphasis on the first sexual experience with this man.
I'm 99% sure that the waiting and anticipation did you in. Between the fact that you're unused to a smaller dick and you're obviously uncomfortable that he didn't warn you ahead of time, that's going to make your first experience awkward, at best. He hasn't had any opportunity to figure out what makes you tick. He doesn't know your tells - he has no idea if he is pleasuring you or not. He likely only focused so deeply on foreplay because he was interested in seeing you pleasured before he enjoyed it himself. His interest in foreplay had nothing to do with the size of his dick, and everything to do with wanting to see you happy. If you don't feel a need for foreplay, then you need to make the moves to advance things more quickly. The fact that you expect things to move "organically" tells me that with past sexual partners you were likely playing less of an active role, passively following their lead. Well, guess what - this is your opportunity to take action, to make sure you have a good time. He obviously wants to see you have a good time - now you need to figure out how to get yourself to orgasm, and let him help out along the way. Oral sex, fingering, caressing, nipple play - these are all just as fun as coitus, and the pleasure isn't impacted by size. Now, I must admit there are times where all I want is a nice solid, deep, pounding by an engorged penis. But that's rare, and can be accomplished by even the least endowed man with a larger-than-life dildo or a strap-on.
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