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Kreal · 04-16-2011, 08:48 PM

Thanks again for the great replies. I think I'm beginning to fight my inner conscience that still wants her back and is open to forgiving... today I realize there really is no reason for me to want a girl like her after this. In the dating world she sure isn't the best offering as she can never (and never showed initiative) in wanting to better herself financially, credit wise, or look for a better job.

Pretty much the sexual openness, and her cleaning and helping with tasks around the house is about all she can qualify for in the 'whats good' department.

Faithfulness, honesty, well they flew out the door so fast I couldnt catch up.

I believe she did exactly what Jewels said; she mistook my offerings of giving her a home, a car, and a future for love. She had the desire for a lesbian and I just couldnt fulfill that need for her.

Part of me of course is still wanting her back, but thats to be expected as I am a weak-hearted person when it comes to being alone. Its like she was one step from marriage, one step from the top of the ladder and she just jumped down all of the steps. Now she is without a future, a home and stability . I really don't understand it and I dont think I ever will.

Atleast with my name tattood on her breast she will forever remember the name of the man that loved her and her children most in this world, reguardless of faults.

What I do find odd is that she ignores me when I ask her where she wants me to drop her things off at. I tell her 'Where do I put your things? I'll drop them off anywhere just tell me where, I want them out of my house'. And there is never a reply.

04-16-2011, 08:48 PM	#13 (permalink)
Kreal Upright	Thanks again for the great replies. I think I'm beginning to fight my inner conscience that still wants her back and is open to forgiving... today I realize there really is no reason for me to want a girl like her after this. In the dating world she sure isn't the best offering as she can never (and never showed initiative) in wanting to better herself financially, credit wise, or look for a better job. Pretty much the sexual openness, and her cleaning and helping with tasks around the house is about all she can qualify for in the 'whats good' department. Faithfulness, honesty, well they flew out the door so fast I couldnt catch up. I believe she did exactly what Jewels said; she mistook my offerings of giving her a home, a car, and a future for love. She had the desire for a lesbian and I just couldnt fulfill that need for her. Part of me of course is still wanting her back, but thats to be expected as I am a weak-hearted person when it comes to being alone. Its like she was one step from marriage, one step from the top of the ladder and she just jumped down all of the steps. Now she is without a future, a home and stability . I really don't understand it and I dont think I ever will. Atleast with my name tattood on her breast she will forever remember the name of the man that loved her and her children most in this world, reguardless of faults. What I do find odd is that she ignores me when I ask her where she wants me to drop her things off at. I tell her 'Where do I put your things? I'll drop them off anywhere just tell me where, I want them out of my house'. And there is never a reply.