justwantsomefun

this isn't really a question, i would just appreciate some feedback as to what people think.

i am a 30 year old man and i feel i have a huge desire for anal sex. maybe i am straight maybe i am bi, i dont really know. i have a gf and i fantasize about giving her anal. i also fantasize about receiving it. sometimes when i watch porn i wish for nothing more than to be the woman porn star. something about it turns me on so much. since i had these thoughts, i decided to give it a try. the thing is, guys dont really turn me on. its the girls that do. i wish i was the girl being fucked, but i dont really get turned on by the guys at all. i have tried it a few times with guys and it was just awful. the idea of kissing them was something i had no taste for. giving oral kinda turned me on, and so did the idea of being fucked. but when it happened it just didn't feel right. i love to masturbate anally but the real thing with guys is just a turn off. i dont really care if im straight or bi. i have so judgments about either. what do you think?