Originally Posted by pan6467

Well, saw the infectious disease doctor today and there is the lesion in the back right part of my brain that seems to be not getting hit by antibiotics. He says chances are they will have to go in and get a culture. I'm scared. I keep begging the God of my understanding when is enough enough? I am scared I can't take anymore. I just needed to get that off my chest..... thanks.

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going on to yet another brain surgery.... it'll be #5 since August 28th......... I am losing it. This has become like an addiction in and of itself for me, when I think I am better I am under the knife again. I can't take much more. There's no "it's my choice" there's no "turning it over"..... there is ONLY FEAR.