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I'm considering suicide. I have been for years. Especially the last couple of days. I am so dead inside I feel like it wouldn't even be a suicide. Just an ending of a biological organism.
I have little support. Ive been seeing a psychiatrist and counselor for several years and they really haven't helped. So even though they're technically supporting me, I don't feel I'm receiving support.
I don't speak to my Dad but once about 1.5 times a month. He's never very encouraging.
My mom just flat out refuses to talk about anything dark.
My "good" friends never even ask how I'm doing after Ive told them about my afflictions.
I just feel alone and dead already. Trying to think, what's to stop me? I mean, really, why shouldn't I? Emotional turmoil from family is the only thing really stopping me I think. But then again that life. Death is a part of it. We all die sometime.
This crushing depression I've had for years is just using up the last of my willpower.
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