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Redlemon-You wanted me to post how we were doing.Well,December was a long month. At first our contact was very limited outside of when she was working for me. Around the holidays,it went the other way. I spent half of Chrismas eve and half of Christmas day with her. We went out together New Years Eve for a while and were not model citizens. This made me really start to evaluate what I wanted for my future. Did I want stability or tormoil? I called her the next day and told her I believe we both need to start living our lives with more integrity and have more respect for my wife and her boyfriend.
My wife has been very supportive thru all this.Its hard for me to understand why I would feel the need to spend time with another women when I have a great one at home. My wife and I on a trip in December and had probably one of the best weekends we have had in 20 some years. She also suprised me by doing a bodoir photo shoot. (by the way-what a confidence builder for women). My wifes confidence and self esteem grew leaps and bounds and was so happy she did it.
In a nutshell, since New Years,I have been on the right path.Every day when I get up I focus on my wife.I also read an article I found on the web almost every day. It is called "but if we started dating it would ruin our friendship" (satire). It is not completely relevant but the first time I read it I had to laugh because 80% of it described my sister in law and myself to a T.My sister is law starting down a path again that will cause her emotional turmoil with her current relationship but I have vowed not to be there to pick up the pieces. No more bailing her out financially. I am going to try to put 110% back into my marriage. If I see myself failing in this,I will go to counseling because I do not want to lose my wife or family.
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