Manic_Skafe

I couldn't agree more with Snowy and that's not only because she's absolutely spot-on but because I've been exactly where you're headed Shauk - treating your relationships as some sort of bootcamp for the broken and unavailable only leaves you a victim to the inevitable shitstorm they'll become. You'll eventually have to come to terms with the fact that while no one is perfect, your penchant for seeking out these sorts of people and maintaining relationships like this speaks more about you and your broken sense of self than it does about them.

It's clear you're not interested in engaging in a critical discussion of what you're doing here unless it supports what you're going to do anyway but I'll suggest again that you take the time to seriously consider what all of this stuff says about you. It doesn't matter how good it makes you feel in the moment, being an adult entails sacking up, doing what's right and taking care of yourself.

When you're ready you'll come to find that there's too many good women out there for these games.

(and also, I'll reiterate, you're totally taking advantage of this girl.)

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