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Is it at all possible that I'm somehow just more open to the fact that everyone is flawed somehow? I can't just shut everyone down for every minute sign of potential drama before it actually happens. Seems odd to me. Plus I think I'm critical enough that I'd wind up being a video gaming hermit in no time flat if I wasn't open to the fact that humans have issues. Hell, I'd hate myself for everything wrong I've ever done with that mindset, but life is a learning process. Nobody handed us a manual ya know?
In any case, Yes, there is potential for fallout. She has expressed that she wants this to become "more" than just sex, but at the same time, says she is confused and thinks she needs to figure her shit out, remain single before committing and calling it a relationship.
I'm very good at getting myself in to these grey areas apparently.
Honestly I'd be happy if she said she wanted to date, but right now she seems like my favorite nerd friend. Heck she's coming over to do some head to head DS/mario and rock band action with me, then we'll probably nerd out with movies/music and whatnot then we'll take our nerdy asses to the bedroom and, hey, it feels alright to me.
From MY end of things, she's got a welcome spot in my life, I guess the only confusion in this scenario is where she sees me in things.
I mean if I had to summarize her in 3 words, she's all about Pirates, Vampires, and Sex.
Basically shes sailing the seas of life having a good time, getting her booty, so to speak, in her quest to retain mortality by staying young/acting young while she has that option, and well, sex is sex, who doesn't like sex? *shrug*
See the problem is, I overthink things probably, honestly if I were more patient with people things would go a lot smoother I'm sure.
I mean I'm bracing for the fact that I might just be another notch on her belt so to speak, (and hell, girls thought they were the only ones with that worry) but you know, I'm gonna sit here and wonder until this grey becomes black and white instead right?
This whole meeting with the ex situation is looming closer as well :\
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