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Originally Posted by KirStang
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I was wondering if perhaps, it's also because I have less to lose now? I remember in undergrad, it was really easy to push myself to work even when I did not want to, for fear of losing my near straight-A transcript. Now, with mostly Bs (every JD has a 3.0), I feel I have less to lose.
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All in all, it might boil down to a cost benefit analysis--the amount of work I put in the past 2 years of law school did not result in the results I wanted.
It would be a nice to reframe my goals and find my motivation.
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OK ... you want a reframe. You state your motivator in terms of NOT wanting to LOSE something. Your goals had been external ... Straight A's and you did not want to lose those. Bs are happening now and ... whilst you're not pushing like you were for the As, I wonder how you'd feel about going down to Cs - how does that feel. NOW ... External goals like that have many more factors operating than the ones over which you have control.
Shift frame away from External, and toward Internal, OK? Keep the 'don't want to lose' part, but try an alternative concept like 'Afraid of Losing My Edge'. Disconnect it from the Examiners' Marks, and reconnect it with some 'doing well for your OWN sake'. If you can slip that smoothly in, then good.
If you need supportive reasoning which links with you're actively wanting to move forward to in the future, then how's about
: You being able to work at your very best, at any job you might be doing in the future, is a crucial freedom for you to have. External 'marks,' 'points' 'job-acceptances,' 'promotions,' and other Kudos-shaped stuff will come your way or be withheld for many reasons, some of which are outside your control. You cannot know all those outside factors. However, you Do know when you are operating at your best ... so are you not afraid to lose that? And will not your choice to choose on your OWN terms be supremely necessary in whatever future course you navigate?
Now .. IF these ideas kind of work ... can you test and check it more thoroughly - tailor it to you in ways which can only be provided with the help of your expert knowledge of yourself? Run the ideas through a few times and find out how they could rebuild the motivation you need to NOT lose, and also, what else needs to be added.
You finishes your post with reference to Cost-Benefit analysis ... so please would you do a cost benefit analysis of your continuing to let your 'edge and motivation' be controlled by others' marking and kudos-giving styles? A cost benefit analysis of NOT making these changes now?