When I was small, I wanted to be either a doctor or pilot. I found out later that for the latter, you need excellent eyesight and spatial relations perception; and for the former, you need to know math.
I have none of those abilities, so in my teens and early twenties, I wanted to be a great novelist and leading actor.
I couldn't seem to finish any novels, and I don't have the looks for a leading actor.
So in my mid- and late twenties, I wanted to be a director and playwright. I did actually direct some plays and get a couple produced, but they were small, and I found I couldn't live on what I made (that being as close to nothing as is possible), and I was tired of crap food service jobs-- plus I was beginning to observe the sabbath again, and everyone in theater works on Friday nights and Saturdays.
I then thought about being a chef and owning a restaurant, because I love to cook, and I am told I am good at it. But I love living in LA, and have no interest in being someone's sous chef, line cook, and general whipping boy for a decade or so before getting to head chef. And to open my own restaurant in LA would be too expensive: I looked around, and I found out that LA restaurants have a first-year fail rate over over 70%, and startup costs require venture capital of around $2Mill minimum, so that was out.
I kicked around for a few years before finally deciding to go to rabbinical school, so that I could teach Torah for a living.
Ironically, I can't find a job in Jewish education for shit, but I am about a third of the way through a novel, which my wife (who has taught writing before) says is very good....
Even more ironically, the one thing I never wanted to be when I was a kid was a rabbi-- my dad is a rabbi, and it never appealed to me.
Just goes to show that you never know how things will work out.
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Dull sublunary lovers love,
Whose soul is sense, cannot admit
Absence, because it doth remove
That thing which elemented it.
(From "A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning" by John Donne)
Last edited by levite; 01-04-2011 at 10:45 AM..
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