bagatelle

I find myself in what Baraka Guru and mixedmedia wrote to some extent, a bit absent-minded I tend to remember, how I felt afterwards rather than what I heard exactly someone saying. Sadly, I think I pick negative notions from other people's words too easily. It's easier for me to critisize and concentrate on flaws than remember "good" times.

I did very well in school in languages and math, I enjoyed doing the repetitious tasks, which helped me to remember and I didn't actually have to work to learn. I didn't do well in history and remembering the dates or events told, but I enjoyed listening to teacher or reading myself - I could remember many details long enough to pass well in tests, but then I sort of let myself forget, I think, as if the sole goal of studying had been to excel in tests. Reading has been mostly entertainment for me, not consciously gathering knowledge.

I used to remember birthdays (even dates of death) to many relatives and friends, now I hardly can keep up with the new data. I used to be interested in trivial things about people, gossip about celebrities and such, but I can't fathom how some people know by heart the discography of an artist from way back, when I know I also listened to the same music, enjoyed it, but couldn't always even remember the artist nor the song in question, I just find some songs familiar and often connect them with emotions, I used to have. The same with the books or movies, I "experience" them and afterwards wonder, how other people are able to make so deep analysis and raise quotes, they find significant.

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