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If you are posting to "get a rise", enjoy. I know there's an option to log on invisibly, so I'm willing to give you the benefit of the doubt; besides, the powers-that-be know. I enjoy playing shrink, so sue me. I wanna have fun, too.
IMO, you're not a sociopath but a pure narcissist. Lying and manipulation are experiments for you. People are here so you can test your own power. I think that killing animals may have been the same for you. Testing your strength and worth. The fact that you didn't torture them or talk about the joy it brought you gives us that subtle difference.
Thinking you're better than others is a trait that semi-intelligent people share. I say semi because most of y'all are much more educated than I am, but I still think I'm better/smarter than most people I know IRL. I think you probably come here because there are quite a few brainiacs here and you enjoy learning and sharing. That's another clue.
Not feeling a family member's death -- numbness. It could be that you just didn't like/love her, didn't know her, you're in denial, or you're glad she's no longer aging/in pain/whatever or most likely, you don't care. No matter which, it feels immature and egotistical. Not sociopathic.
You would care if someone raped your mother. Not sociopathic behavior. Rape fantasies? I've always had them. Sorry to disappoint, but nothing new. Boredom? Immaturity. Or a boring life? Back to pathological narcissism. For me, that's even scarier. I'm pretty sure it's considered a psychopathic behavior, but it should be treatable.
BTW, I don't believe that even you think you're sociopathic since you're afraid to go for help due to a potential label that you are attempting to put on yourself. A sociopath wouldn't fear a label. Granted, I'm not a psychiatrist, psychologist or social worker, so take my amateur analysis for what it's worth. However, I'd urge you to go see one since your post appears to be a cry for help.
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Mark Twain
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