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remy1492 · 09-09-2010, 11:54 PM

Like Plan 9 said, I should have appreciate each person I dated for who they were at the time more than I did. But there was a reason we broke up, and the nostalgia (sunscreen song) part of your brain covers that up. (one day must have a drink with 9 and talk life).

I actually forgot WHY I broke up with a neighbor girlfriend I dated for a few weeks. We were chatting a few years later and I just sat there wondering how it ended. Then she reminded me she went apesh*t psycho on another friend of mine at a work party and embarrassed the hell out of me. I suddenly remembered, ooooh yeahhhh THAT'S why we broke up! My nostalgia of here was good and I had happy memories of her, until she reminded me WHY we weren't still dating. Phew, thanks for that, after she reminded me, that nostalgia on the size of her tatas went away quickly.

The one I regret? Was the one that I never really had a chance with kinda sorta.
She lived in CO and I lived in TX but I am military and cannot move 9-11 just happened and a long distance relationship was looking bleak. The father of her kids and her immediate family is all in CO, so to uproot them to live with me in the middle of nowhere took a lot of considering. I loved this girl so much I just accepted that I'd be a stepfather to her kids (and I avoided chicks with kids like the plague prior to this). This was a huge step for me as I was just before a pilot training bachelor living life sleeping with many many girls and giving nothing for commitment to anybody. But she blew me away and made me want to give all that up.

She was gorgeous, funny, sexy, hard working and loved GUNS! (my hobby).

She called me with an April fool's joke that she was pregnant (by me of course) and I freaked out. Then I realized, I freaked out because I thought I didn't make enough money to support 3 kids total, not because she was pregnant though. That really showed me where my heart was.
Ya know that, "when the going gets tough" thing. I found out how I really felt about her when she joked like that. Luckily her sister called me to stop the heart attack I had and informed me of the cruel joke.

I did not want to pull the kids away from their dad (whom she never married) without there being a good reason or at least a shot at that guy accepting that challenge of responsibility. I, or maybe we, made the decision for her to try to date her kid's dad first and really try to make it work for the sake of her kids.

If he was a douche and it didn't work out, then my door and heart were wide open. It actually did work out with that guy and she had to cut me off 100% so she could focus on their new family and not have me in the picture clouding things up emotionally. I understood this as I also could not function sanely with her in my life, but not IN it.

Every girl since that I met I compared to her and I still think about her often. Luckily after 8 years she just started to email me again just to say hi. So I did get my wish.

You guys write some good stuff in the posts and thats why I come here. I agree, its the past and we have to live for today, but thinking of her smell, her smile, her voice, for me elicits something stronger than the Force and is like a vodka shot for an alcoholic or the Ring for Smeagol.

ahhhh my precious, just to hold it for............one more time.

09-09-2010, 11:54 PM	#63 (permalink)
remy1492 Crazy Location: CA TX LU	Like Plan 9 said, I should have appreciate each person I dated for who they were at the time more than I did. But there was a reason we broke up, and the nostalgia (sunscreen song) part of your brain covers that up. (one day must have a drink with 9 and talk life). I actually forgot WHY I broke up with a neighbor girlfriend I dated for a few weeks. We were chatting a few years later and I just sat there wondering how it ended. Then she reminded me she went apesh*t psycho on another friend of mine at a work party and embarrassed the hell out of me. I suddenly remembered, ooooh yeahhhh THAT'S why we broke up! My nostalgia of here was good and I had happy memories of her, until she reminded me WHY we weren't still dating. Phew, thanks for that, after she reminded me, that nostalgia on the size of her tatas went away quickly. The one I regret? Was the one that I never really had a chance with kinda sorta. She lived in CO and I lived in TX but I am military and cannot move 9-11 just happened and a long distance relationship was looking bleak. The father of her kids and her immediate family is all in CO, so to uproot them to live with me in the middle of nowhere took a lot of considering. I loved this girl so much I just accepted that I'd be a stepfather to her kids (and I avoided chicks with kids like the plague prior to this). This was a huge step for me as I was just before a pilot training bachelor living life sleeping with many many girls and giving nothing for commitment to anybody. But she blew me away and made me want to give all that up. She was gorgeous, funny, sexy, hard working and loved GUNS! (my hobby). She called me with an April fool's joke that she was pregnant (by me of course) and I freaked out. Then I realized, I freaked out because I thought I didn't make enough money to support 3 kids total, not because she was pregnant though. That really showed me where my heart was. Ya know that, "when the going gets tough" thing. I found out how I really felt about her when she joked like that. Luckily her sister called me to stop the heart attack I had and informed me of the cruel joke. I did not want to pull the kids away from their dad (whom she never married) without there being a good reason or at least a shot at that guy accepting that challenge of responsibility. I, or maybe we, made the decision for her to try to date her kid's dad first and really try to make it work for the sake of her kids. If he was a douche and it didn't work out, then my door and heart were wide open. It actually did work out with that guy and she had to cut me off 100% so she could focus on their new family and not have me in the picture clouding things up emotionally. I understood this as I also could not function sanely with her in my life, but not IN it. Every girl since that I met I compared to her and I still think about her often. Luckily after 8 years she just started to email me again just to say hi. So I did get my wish. You guys write some good stuff in the posts and thats why I come here. I agree, its the past and we have to live for today, but thinking of her smell, her smile, her voice, for me elicits something stronger than the Force and is like a vodka shot for an alcoholic or the Ring for Smeagol. ahhhh my precious, just to hold it for............one more time.