Originally Posted by From an anonymous entry entitled "When I Love Me, Can I Love You Next?"

Just right now, I'm standing outside the briskness of the night, a little drunk, but taking it in and I'm hit with an epiphany.

It's good to dream. It's good to hope. It's not a pathetic venture to dream big even when it doesn't seem like there's a hole big enough for you to fit through to get at what you dream about. I think most of us beat ourselves before we even get fixed at the starting line. Before we even get our numbers on our chest. We say, God this is stupid, why bother? We're like, there's no fucking way this is going to happen, a loser like me, a mediocre personage such as myself, a motherfucker of my means. We start to think that our lives are already laid out in an atrophic eventuality because we think we're stuck in a routine merry-go-round already. That we're strapped at the heels.

It's just that whatever we hope for just seems so out of the ordinary and stratospherically impossible. But, I guess, I've come to realize that, who knows, as we live right now, as we live in the present tense, there's no reason to chart out what didn't happen yet. We don't write our own horoscopes; we're not psychics of our own lives. Because right now, right at this moment, we can get the fuck off whatever it is we don't want to be and chase what we do want. I don't care. Even if what I want, at the end of my life, never happens, I'm not there yet, I'm here now. I'm here. right. now. and I can still be what the fuck I want to be. I can still do what I want to do. But for some reason, for the most part, that's so difficult to entertain.

It's not being idealistic. Honestly, to me: that's being realistic. To dream is being realistic. To want is being realistic. The cynics in us, hell, in me (it's a team effort) might say that to be realistic is to just realize the truth about our situation, that we're never going to be superstars, that to think that way is just an irrationality, at our age, but fuck it, I don't think so. That's when you give up. You shouldn't give yourself your own reason to beat you. Let someone else do it if it comes to that, but why should you do it for anyone.

You know what someone says when they give up? They say, "I'm just being realistic."

The question is, do epiphanies last the next day, after your blood alcohol level is back to 0.00?