Shadowex3

In Highschool there was a girl in one of my classes who, from an objective standpoint, pretty much fit every quantifiable criteria I can name. Intelligent, not orthodox but still very much a jew, and at least in my opinion stunningly beautiful.

Now the backstory is that after about 10 years of literally having maybe one person I would interact with outside of the internet and abuse of varying brutality from teachers and often not much better from students I wasn't exactly up to speed on things like romance, seduction, and various basics of human interaction. This school was not much different and at the time I was desperately trying to get transferred to an online school where I'd be out of their system's reach.

That meant instead of trying to fit in I had to crank all my existing upfuckness to 11 to convince the administration I wasn't worth keeping around to screw with anymore. A not insignificant number of people basically figured it out from the start and wound up being good friends and helping me learn the ropes of positive human interaction. She wasn't one of them, she hated me, or at least feared me and found me as disturbing as half the faculty did. Being as incompetent as I was I didn't notice and actually thought the proper course of action was (compared to current skills) bad poetry and asking if she wanted to go see a movie.


The worst part I think is that being where I am now it's undeniable that I was in no condition to be in a relationship with someone, at the time I just wasn't really even capable of that kind of feeling or positive interaction. It just makes it so much worse to admit that she really was justified in her assessment. Especially since i rolled on my Charisma check so bad that to this day I'm on her block list and can never even apologize for how headsmackingly awkward and stupid that was.

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