Idyllic

BG… I am not trying to find meaning in life, life just is, imho. I am simply finding peace in death and attempting to validate the everyday enjoyments of living in a cohesive environment where we can share each others experiences. I don’t have to prove my ability (religion) to help the success of the human race, if I only even minutely succeed in the advancement of those finding peace and happiness in their own mortality around me, just because they can, just because life is worth the effort, then I have done the best I can to instill in those I love a life better that half the world where poverty of spirit is the real tormentor and the death of others is viewed as negotiable to ones own survival, I don’t negotiate death, I just wish to see life’s pain end, however necessary. I hate to see life suffer but I recognize that suffering to me may not be suffering to you. Faith, imho, is just a means to the end of a ride that does not devastate living it merely magnifies life’s beauty for what it is, an experience in being however fleeting that may be, being is in knowing life’s moments of emotion and beauty, even in pain and it is this knowing that is a reward all it’s own.


I'm not talking about the old roadside carcass, I was talking about that which made me, me (other than the chemical synapses in a bowl of jello), anyways as far as burial goes, I hate the thought of wasting land on a decomposing body with a garish headstone stating RIP. I was personally hoping for the burning pyre at sea, Norse, Celtic, viking "ish" aspirations, but I will settle with simple cremation and tossed into the bay to soak up some of that oil.

I very well know, "the worms crawl in, the worms crawl out, the worms play Pinochle on your snout," my grandmother used to sing that to me all the time...

The Hearse Song (Worms Crawl In)

Decomposition rules the world, but that is not the solitude I seek, I know the biology of nature. It's the persistence work of positive thinking that fills my hearts' pessimistic nature with optimistic rosy shades to view through so my life becomes more than what most grow comfortable simply surviving. Faith is just my blessing of a peace that is yet to come for me so living becomes more than just simply waking up.

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you can tell them all you want but it won't matter until they think it does

p.s. I contradict my contradictions, with or without intention, sometimes.