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So far so good, ive basically escaped any embarrassment and even if it comes out, its been long enough that im pretty sure i'll be able to brush it off fairly easy.

Spoke to her briefly and i think she got the memo, she even said "hope to see you again, but just as friends this time" or something to that effect.

On another note i think im getting better with the whole being a gentleman thing. Met a girl 2 weeks ago when i was out and was having a really interesting conversation with her. Ended up kissing a little at the club and chatted for about an hour outside. I asked if she felt like coming over to my place and she thought it was a nice idea "but only as friends!!" she said. I knew that was bs and she was keen.

Got back to mine and as we were lying in bed we kissed a little then i decided i wanted to get some sleep (it was probably around 3 in the morning and considering she claimed to just want to be friends i decided to see what it would be like to not push for anything).

After trying to get to sleep for a few mins she started telling me how she was a little offended that i didnt want to do anything with her. On a side note, as expected she wasnt the a top looking chick, so i thought she was basically saying "don't you want to do anything with me because im fat". The truthful answer was, yeh basically even i dont want to fuck you, but my natural instincts took over and i started to finger her.

Don't know how much detail i should go into but she was leaking fairly bad and at that point she gave me the "you ready look". Then out of the blue i just stopped and said something like "i don't think i can do this", i think i just wanted to see what would happen when the roles are reversed. I thought it would be fun to hold the power over her, but she took it fairly well and kept saying "i bet your a virgin. your are aren't you....arent you??". I kinda agrees, at this stage i was a little sleep deprived and couldn't be bothered playing her game any longer.

It was probably a good idea in the end because she ended up being even weirder then me, saying all kinds of fucked up things. Asking me what i wanted to do with her today. Movies? Picnic? She even wanted to do some "arts and craft"!!

My excuse for telling her that i wanted her to leave was "i really enjoy watching the basketball (i think it was game 6, not too sure) and i like doing it alone". She seemed a little upset and got to that stage that everyone knows where your on the cusp of crying, so i kinda just shut up. I didnt get her number or give her mine but i walked her to the gate and even told her where to get a taxi from, so i reckon i handled myself real well.

If i'd never been on this site i reckon i wouldn't have handled the situation so well. I think im growing on the inside.

Just forgot the best bit. Had a bad case of blue balls so i watched a little youporn and no kidding i swallowed a little of my own juice because i shot it soo hard. That last bit was for that guy that i thought was a girl.