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Originally Posted by mqa
And I don't know if I want to change how I am. I don't really love myself, but I wouldn't want to be different, or be someone else, either.
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It really wasn't all that long ago that I thought all that different from you.
I let my view of myself and my attitude towards myself gradually fester and compound until it was just a bad old habit, and old habits die hard. I didn't know anything else, I didn't know any other way to see myself. I knew somewhere in the back of my mind it wasn't healthy, but I was too used to, and comfortable with the status quo. I couldn't be bothered with change.
It was just fortunate that a number of things happened in the last 6 months that really opened my eyes to just how bad things had gotten without me really realising it.
I'm still battling with a few demons, and that will take some time. But for the most part at the moment I feel like a new person, a better person. I'm left wondering why the fuck it took me so long to deal with all this in the first place. But everything happens in its own time and space I guess, for better or worse.