Thank you guys, seriously, I cannot even begin to express how much of a help this thread has been.
I got home from the hospital today. I am now living alone. I don't maintain much hope that my marriage will survive, but we haven't closed the door on it either. I still love her, I still want to be married to her, but I don't know that we can put it back together.
I will be following up w/ an MD, a counselor, and some anger management classes. I must get myself healthy. For the time being the doc at the hospital has put me on a mood stabilizer, but I'm really on a rollercoaster. Coming home today, knowing I was going to truly be alone was completely overwhelming. It's gonna be an interesting ride.
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