Thanks for the update, Anon. Your SO likely has an inkling, if they know anything about depression. Opening up to them is important; we all need support. I know some people like to be stoic about things like this, but trying to tough it out doesn't help. I tried that once and it failed miserably. Additionally, your SO can serve as an important barometer of your mood later on down the line. Good luck talking with them.
Look at your medication as a tool for helping you to get better. You wouldn't sniff at antibiotics if you had strep, would you? No. No one is saying you have to be on meds forever. I have successfully managed to be off of medication for years at a time; however, doing so takes a LOT of work, and when you're seriously depressed, that is not the time to try. Medication will help you get out of the hole that depression puts you in; it will help you claw your way out, and then once you're out, you can do all of the CBT things mentioned earlier in this thread that will help keep you out of the hole. CBT alone cannot get you out of the hole if it's deep enough.
I'm really glad that you followed through with this, and wish you the best in getting this dealt with.
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